Sunday, May 30, 2004

I say ... and you think ... ?

Lover :: care giver
Ridiculous :: silly
Oscar :: award
Tennis :: shoe
Account Balance :: zero
Hickey :: Mark
License :: drivers
Breathmints :: cool
TexMex :: so so
Stepmother :: Myself

Monday, May 24, 2004

My results.

When you take the quiz, you can click on any of the religions in your list to read a bit more about them. I wonder if anyone will be surprised with their results.

1. Neo-Pagan (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (93%)
3. Mahayana Buddhism (87%)
4. Reform Judaism (83%)
5. Liberal Quakers (82%)
6. New Age (82%)
7. Jainism (77%)
8. Sikhism (71%)
9. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (68%)
10. Hinduism (67%)
11. Theravada Buddhism (64%)
12. New Thought (63%)
13. Bahá'í Faith (59%)
14. Orthodox Judaism (55%)
15. Scientology (53%)
16. Secular Humanism (53%)
17. Islam (46%)
18. Orthodox Quaker (46%)
19. Taoism (45%)
20. Nontheist (31%)
21. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (28%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (22%)
23. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (20%)
24. Eastern Orthodox (19%)
25. Roman Catholic (19%)
26. Seventh Day Adventist (16%)
27. Jehovah's Witness (9%)

An interesting quiz.

I found this interesting quiz on a Pagan Family bulletin board on Baby I think you will find it interesting. I'll have to post later with my results, I forgot to copy them. Anyway try this and see where your beliefs fall.


Spring flowers.
Blue Skies.
Having vision to see them.
Aidan's laugh.
Being able to hear them.

I say ... and you think ... ?

Finale :: Ending
Martial arts :: Discipline
Flirt :: Playful
Energy :: I don't have enough
Flavor :: Taste
Guess? :: What?
Accomplishment :: Pride
Prom :: Dance
Diploma :: Award
Bloody :: Mess

Thursday, May 20, 2004

Mixed up dreams.

A lot of my dreams have had some aspect of intrigue or mystery about them lately. I don't remember much about them most of the time. There are always bits and pieces, or feelings that I flash on. Last night, I dreamt that I had another baby boy. He was 1 and a half years younger than Aidan. Then I was going shopping at Wal-Mart, but had to put some things from my cart into the car before going in because I'd gotten them at another store. I thought I didn't have any money but then remembered that I had a Wal-Mart Credit Card. I needed to get some things for my cover story. (I think I was a spy, or undercover agent of some sort.) Then I was hiding behind some bushes, watching a man.

Monday, May 17, 2004

Monday positives.

We are feeling much better today.
Aidan's spots went away.
It's only going to be 80 degrees today.
Knowing that if I need to, I have some place I can go to be safe.
Friends that are still friends despite time and distance.
Today I will have enough to eat, a warm place to sleep, and a shower when I want it.
Today my family and friends are still alive and doing relatively well.
Today I am loved and I love in return.

My dream.

It was cold, and rainy. I was walking toward a building where I was to meet someone. When I got there I sat at a table in a small coffee shop to wait. I had some work to do on a laptop so I pulled it out and started to work. Later, I must have talked to the person, because I was leaving the coffee shop with a new assignment. I went to look for the man I was to give the paper to. Later again, I was scared, someone had killed the man and was looking for me. I was sure that I was hidden well enough to keep safe for a short time. Shift of scene and reason for hiding. I had ran away from California, because Howard had died and Aidan's biological Mother was coming to get him. I knew that she had been doing a lot of drugs and that she really just wanted to sell him to someone for more drugs. (I don't know how I knew it but it was true in the dream anyway) I didn't want to give him up at all, but it was even more scary to give him to her, so I took him and we went into hiding. I went to New York to live with Allen, and started looking for someone to get me fake documents so that Aidan would appear to me my son, and for both of us to have different names. I thought New York would be the place to find such things. I was afraid every day that Aidan would be taken away from me.

I woke up with a coughing spell. When I could get back to sleep I had silly dreams of dancing flowers, the Wiggles, and cartoon characters playing Spades.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

I say ... and you think ... ?

Playoffs :: Basketball
Morris :: The Cat
Break up :: to Make up
Eggs :: and toast
Parker :: Brothers
Hardy Boys :: Mystery's
Deluxe :: Edition
Protection :: Safety
Girl Scout :: Cookies
Salsa :: Music

Unconscious Mutterings

Saturday, May 15, 2004

Health issues.

Well, my family seems to have caught a virus. Aidan has a fever, is throwing up, and has tiny red spots all over him. Howard spent 2 days throwing up. Today I'm feeling sick. My biggest problem is that I don't have a washer and dryer handy, so there are several things that Aidan threw up on that need to be washed. I could go down to Buna's, but since I'm sick and Aidan is too ... I think we should stay home. Unfortunately, I'm running out of bedding for Aidan's bed, and Howards cloths for school needs to be washed. I'm not sure what I'll do, probably wait until tomorrow hoping that I'll feel better. I hope all of you who are reading this are well.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

The new Template.

I decided to choose a new template. I liked this one because it's green, my favorite color. I don't know how to make the word "Links" bigger, but I'll find out how and fix it later. As far as I can tell all the links work from here. We'll see how it goes, I might change it again someday.

How things are progressing.

Aidan wasn't changed much because of his surgery. He hates diaper changes, because I have to put neosporin on the surgery sites. But he is walking as much as he did before, maybe a little more, and his talking is the same.

Howard has an interview tomorrow for a job, that might be just part time. But that would work out fine for the next few weeks while he finishes his class and takes his test to get his certification.

I'm still happily a stay at home Mom. The new place is slowly taking shape, but there is still a lot for me to do.

I talked to my Mom on Mother's Day, she had spent a nice day with my brother Mark and his lady. He took the opportunity to propose to her! They haven't set a date yet, but I'm going to try my best to be there for the wedding. I'm very happy that he has finally found someone that he can love, and talk to. I hope she understand about "Rose Gardens". (It's an in joke sorry.)

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

The speed Demon.

I've decided that I must be possessed by a Speed Demon. LOL I tend to drive too fast, and it seems to happen all on it's own, as if I have no control over the situation. One moment I'll glance down at the speedometer and I'm going 65, the next I'll look and I'm going 85! I don't know how this happens, I don't want to drive fast ... I just feel like I'm driving too slow and then I realize that I'm actually driving too fast. I've been lucky and haven't gotten a ticket or had even a close call with the police. I've also been lucky in that I've been able to avoid even coming close to having an accident. I'm trying to slow down. Unfortunately Friday, on the way to the Hospital a trip that should have taken 90 minutes took less than 60.

Anyone know of an exorcism for a Speed Demon? LOL!

Monday, May 10, 2004

Monday again.

Aidan's smiles.
The love of my family.
Having someone to talk to.
Star filled evening sky.
Aidan's kisses.
Allen, and Xander.
Hearing from Sara and Mikey.
New babies, and older children.

Sunday, May 09, 2004

Happy Mother's Day

I hope that every Mother, Step-Mother, Mother-to-be, future Mother has a wonderful day.

I say ... and you think ... ?

Vagina :: female
Racism :: evil
Mother's Day :: love
Fire alarm :: loud
Elvis :: Presley
Pregnant :: not yet
Vacation :: rest
Waffles :: yummy
Perpendicular :: beside
Hospital :: cold

Friday, May 07, 2004


We had to be at the hospital by 8:30 AM, it took one and a half hours to get there. We waited, after the initial sign in, until 9:45 for them to take Aidan in for his surgery. It was almost 12 when we were allowed back into recovery to see him. He was mad and he felt strange because of the anesthesia and so he was yelling and crying. I calmed him down after about 10 minutes, and he went back to sleep. We couldn't leave until he woke up and was alert. They took his vital signs and gave us a prescription for some pain meds. The surgery went well. The Doctor said that the testicle is small and soft, it may never develop fully, but the one on the right seems to be normal. Once he has gone through puberty and finished growing he will have to learn how to check for tumors, because men who have had an undecended testicle have a greater risk for cancer even if they have the surgery to bring it down. He can be checked for Sperm count once he is mature as well, many men have only one functioning testicle and still are able to become fathers.

I'm very tired, relieved, and sorry that he has to suffer through the pain. But I know it's for the best, and it's better done now than later. Thank you everyone for your support and your kindness.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

What a Thursday today is.

I'm so very sleepy today. I laid down for an hour but I'm still almost drifting off. I'm sitting here waiting for the Children's Hospital to call for the time that we need to have Aidan in for all the pre-surgery stuff. I hate waiting for anything, and this is difficult as it is. Aidan is sitting in his high chair eating his lunch, blissfully unaware that tomorrow he will be experiencing pain like he's never had before. Ok, now I'm getting ... I'm not sure of the word I want, sad, worried, empathetic ... I don't know.

I also wonder how this will affect his walking and other development. He's going to hurt down between his legs, will he stop trying to walk because of that? Or will it prompt him to walk more? Will he focus more on talking now, or will he revert back to an earlier stage? At least it's only day surgery, so he won't have to spend the night in the hospital. After Christopher had his surgery, when he was 8, he kind of got weird about food. Because they had him on a liquid diet for a couple of days. (He had some bleeding in his intestines. And they needed to clear them out to find the problem.) Aidan is younger and will be on liquids for a much shorter time, and he likes drinking from a cup or a bottle, it hasn't been all that long since all he had was liquids anyway.

Wednesday, May 05, 2004


I was chatting with my Mom yesterday, and I realized that I hadn't told her about Aidan's surgery. Part of it is because I kept thinking that the problem would fix itself. Well, since he's over a year old and his testicle is still not where it belongs ...
Anyway, I've talked about it here and I guess I forgot that I hadn't told everyone. She wasn't angry or anything, and I hope her feelings weren't hurt too badly. Mom and I are still friends, I would never do anything to hurt her.

The surgery is Friday. I'm really nervous when I think about it. He's such a sweet little boy. I feel very lucky to have him in my life.

I miss Allen and Chris, but it looks like they are doing ok with out me. And of course I miss my adorable Xander. I wish I could live closer so I could watch him grow. A Grandma needs her grandkids, and since I only have Xander I feel like I really need him. From the pictures I've seen he's so very cute, and from what I hear from his mother and father he is really very smart as well. He reminds me of Allen at that age, I hope he has fewer problems than Allen did. Allen grew up pretty well despite all the trouble he got into.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Inspiration, guidance, words of wisdom.

Mind Body Spirit Coaching

"A smile can change the day" - Allan J. Firman

We are constantly attracting to our lives, a universal energy that matches our own energy. With a smile we send out positive energy to the world, so we in turn get a positive response from the universe.

The next time you are feeling stuck in your life. Smile for a complete day and see what you notice is positive and then notice all the positive things you attract towards you.

Found here.

Interesting place.

This is an interesting new blog for political discussion, so far they only have 2 news articles, but I've found that at least one of their readers is intelligent and not afraid to debate differing view points. I hope it continues to grow and does as well as I think it can.

Monday, May 03, 2004

Meds, the heat and sleepiness.

I don't know if it's the new medication I'm taking or the heat, but lately I've been so very tired. Last night I went to bed at 9:30, usually I go to bed at 11. I just couldn't keep my eyes open any longer. The night before I just barely stayed awake until 11, the day after I started taking the meds, I slept for 3 hours in the afternoon, and then went to bed at 10. It's been in the 90's every day since I got the meds, and since the air conditioner here isn't working at it's best it gets pretty hot inside the house. We don't have enough shade to go out side, and I burn too easy not to sit in the shade, so Aidan and I stay in front of the fans a lot of the time during the day. My allergies are really kicking up too. So it could be any or all of these factors causing me to be so sleepy.

Oh, the medication is Celebrex, for the bursitis in my right elbow. I'll be taking it for 30 days total, so only 27 days left. The weather is supposed to cool down before the week-end, 70's and 80's are predicted for the next 2 weeks.

Positive thoughts for a Monday.

My anniversary was nice and quiet, spent with Aidan and Howard.
The medication the Dr. gave me has taken away the pain in my right elbow.
The beautiful smile on Aidans face when he sees me.
Aidans new "cool" sunglasses, which he will leave on for at least two minutes before he pulls them off.
Taking a nice cool shower after a long hot day.

Sunday, May 02, 2004

I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Sexy ::Sleek
2. Clique :: Group
3. Pledge :: Promise
4. Carbs :: Starch
5. Dream Job :: Scrapbook Store Owner
6. Sweeps :: Cleans
7. Soundtrack :: Music
8. Hero :: Protector
9. Shave :: Hairless
10. Christina :: Dance

You can find the web page where I found this Here.