I'm sorry that I didn't comment before. I couldn't remember my password, and now it tells me that you are not using that feature? Oh well, I'll tell you here want I would have said there.
Just because it wasn't permanent doesn't mean it wasn't real. You may still find the "perfect" person for you, it sometimes takes us a long time to understand what that perfect person is really like. Anyway, I love you and want only the best for you. I wish I could hug you right now, even though we didn't hug much when we were together more often.