Friday, March 26, 2004

Differences.

Each of us is different in some way. Some of us have differences that others can see, some of us have differences that are harder to see. I am a 44 year old woman who is over weight, with red hair and green eyes. These are the things that people can see. I am also a mother and grandmother, I like coffee, fantasy, porn, and the color green. My religious beliefs are in transition right now, I have alternate personalities that have been combined (for the most part). Those are some of the things people can't see.

On the outside I look like a normal, fairly conservative, Mother and Grandmother. Calm, cool, and in control of myself. On the inside I'm far from normal, no way am I conservative, and the control I have over myself is mostly for show. On the inside I cry, yell, scream and whine.

I think that human beings are far more similar than we would like to believe we are. On the whole, I feel, humans look for things that are different so that we can group ourselves. "Us" and "Them". We want to belong somewhere, but can't accept that we do belong, to a world wide group called "Human beings". I've often wondered why people want to divide the human race into groups. Not just male and female, but old and young, white, black, brown, red, and yellow, Christian and Pagan. Sometimes I feel like I don't really belong on this world at this time, because so much of what is "normal" behavior for Earth beings seems so ... uncomfortable to me. Why should we care so much as to the sexuality of another person? How can it hurt you to have a neighbor who is transgendered? I don't understand any of it, I try not to judge anyone until I know them personally. I have some amazing friends. Gay, bisexual, transgendered, black, Hispanic, white, male, female, young and old. I can't imagine what my life would be like if I thought I couldn't be friends with someone because of one of those "differences".

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